Dear Beloved: This day has been so hard.
I hated my life so much today.
I was so angry.
Please know this comes out of the deepest place I think I have in my heart.
I hope this is something that speaks to you.
Something that moves you.
How He loves us, even when we don't want him to.
Gosh.
I love you all so much. Enjoy.
-Josh
There's something bigger going on.
More than just you and I.
More than just the here and now.
More to living than being alive.
I've had enough of my anger.
I've had enough of my pain.
I've had enough of my selfishness.
I've had enough of my shame.
It's not about me anymore.
I'm giving up my breath.
It's about loving my Savior.
It's about being submissive 'till death.
I don't want to care anymore about the desires of my flesh.
I don't want to feel this heaviness deep inside my chest.
You never promised me that I wouldn't fall.
You promised me you'd comfort me through it all.
I need your blood inside my body.
I need you to stand me up on my feet.
Pick me up with you hole-y hands.
So both our eyes can meet.
I know it must be hard to love me when there's anger in my eyes.
I know it must be hard to look past the holes in your sons side.
Just know I've always loved you- even when I'm angry.
Know I've always loved you; You're the one who saved me.
